wa m i doing here?...should be studying or slping....ready for 2mr's paper...finally the first paper...start of an enduring exams!...3 days in a row!!...but tink of finishing by fri..n i go enjoy...shiok but i would rather have more time and prob i can score better...but kind of sian liao...tat's y i m here...haha..though it's my last sem in uni..finally end of degree life...but i dun feel anything yet...i juz hope i can pass everything and the results would be wa i have wished for!..sad tat friens tat i have made in the past few yrs...i prob wun meet them again after i grad..unless i reali keep in contact wif them...wanted to take photos wif them...but never get the chance or maybe i m juz too shy to ask for it...cos it's kind of weird...though we do talk to each other...but wasn't reali close...haha...happy todae after seeing bob...much more relieve...and he is reali great...gave me so much tips and help...haha...n another reason i was happy was...haha...will keep tat in my mind...will make sure i can do it 2mr!...jiayou gwen!...haha...powerpotato...way to go!!!!!!
sometimes...i really wonder why are there such people in this world...some people are fucking annoying...rude...doesn't care etc...what the HELL...realli need somewhere to vent my anger...so...since u don't care...so y must i CARE...if i dun care...then who will...tat's how i feel...tat's y...been keeping in my heart all the while...think if i reali wana shout n say it out...it would definitely be mean n nasty...seriously...i reali wana do tat...but will offend people and will hav lesser friens...i just feel that whether my frens are true friens...sometimes i feel being used...like if they need help...they would approach me...then when i reali need help...they all gone...or unwilling...i suppose people wil say they are reali nt ur true friens as true frens would never do tat to u...i reali miss my true frens in s'pore...i suppose it's always best to be alone...u will just be responsible to urself...no one would implicate u...no one can make u angry...sad...i tink tat's the best option for me...or i could be like them...used them n dump them aside when i dun need them...but...i koe i couldn't bring myself to do that...they can go hell or worse after that...n i will go to heaven...haha...seems quite relax tis sem....relax in terms of contact hrs...cos there's onli one lab...but workload is equally heavy...or much more...as they expect more...so many things to worry...so many things to stress about...my plans are always gone...cos of some people..this is dam frustrating...i wonder how long i can bear wif it...m afraid that i can explode anytime....the reason y i am stil unattach...i like guys but a lot tat i see here...horrible...either it's exterior or interior...like e way they dress...horrible...the nice-looking one...character is bad...habits bad..omg...where on earth are the good ones?....i guess they are all dead!...so the best option again...is to be alone...trust only urself...been trying to fight against my mind...my mind has been telling to do the opposite of what's right...n what's has to be done..i know i have been procastinating...i will win over my mind!...family is the best...though we may act like we are not concern over one another business...but deep in our heart...we will always stand by each other...no matter what happens...they are the only ones that would not betray me no matter what happens...something tat i really want to say to them: I Love You All Always...
OMG....it's been a long time since i last wrote anything here....been busy tis yr...onli left 2 wk plus to exams yet i haven reali started anything yet...i m so dam dead tis time round...what to do?...stil have lab reports and presentation...been quite stressful the past few days...sch work...then have to start thinking of looking for honours projects etc...wana get it done b4 i go back...some more hav to fight for ur projects...so dam difficult sia...y can't they juz assign...haha....i hate to be given choices...but also hope i have it at e same time so that i wun get the worst!...hopefully...haha...always feel guilty after shopping...din reali wan to buy anything todae...but ended up...hai...i reali muz stop...reali...muz get back to study mood or else would be too late....dead!!!wa m i suppose to do?...i kow i muz work hard yet i am always so lazy...people always say i am hardworking...but i dun reali agree...cos though i look like i am always surounded by books but in fact i am juz showing to peole maybe?...cos most of the time i am daydreaming...i get distracted easily and loses my concentration...what am i suppose to do?...
yo...back to talk crap again...haaa...reali been doing nothing....maybe did try to memorise one or 2 chapts of biochem...but dun tink it actually gets into my head...haa..one more problems exmas!!!...b4 the final papers...wil try my best...but in find sometimes...results is nt porprotionate to hardwork...the harder u work doesn't mean tat u will get gd grades...n score...so pls dun assume tat my results will be good cos i m hardworking...NOOOOO...i work hard cos i koe i ned more time than other people...i m nt clever...so in order to get the results i wan...i hav to work extra work....i hav to go by the hard way...BUT the problem wif me...lies in my ability's to concentrate...i juz can't seem to concentrate on anything i do...cos i will keep tinkin about other stuff...i duno y...i hav been lik tis since i duno when....i remembered veri clearly about wa a doc said to me...it happened a few yrs ago...can't remember i juz finish Os or As...cos i use my mouth to breathe cos my nose is always blocked...nt enough oxygen actually reaches my brain...tat's y i m always tired though i had the miminum eight hours of slp...so when he koe i have reach either Os or As (ehich i reali can't remember), he was surprised...he said..wah...wif tis condition i can study till tis level...is nt easy then i was lik tinkin in my head...wa the hell r u talkin about...i came to c u so tat i can get my problem fix...n nt listen to all these crap...n i dun believe there is nothing i cannot do...i always have this belief tat nothing is impossible...i mean the universe is so big...human's brain is so complex...u can never koe wa could happen...tink i should stop all these haha..
ohhh....been watching nu ren wo zui da...those on skincare n cosmetics...omg...i m so gonna return to s'pore n buy those products they mention...it's going to cost me a bomb....hopefully i can find job...so tat i can use those money n buy...tinkin if here got...maybe can buy since aust dollar is smaller than s'pore...but they dun hav those products...cos those in the show is mainly those asian products...gonna c if airport got wil get it cos usually airport is cheaper unless those shoppin centres got sale or gd offer....hmm...maybe they will hav since christmas is coming...haa...nvm...can maybe buy a few at airport if got...then ig got gd offer outside...can get it too...how i wish i stay in taiwan or hk..haa...things r cheap n lots of variety to choose from...been tinkin of wa i should do when i get back to sin...def hav to eat!!!...tat's one of the reasons y i go back...but if i work...i wun hav the time liao...c how bah...if the work is lik 9-5 n wkdays onli would be great...then at least i hav break in the wkend to chill or maybe nt work 5 days ,best haha...ok...i shall concentrate on my studies nw...dun tink too much or i wun hav any mood to study...haa...jiayou powerpotato!
finally all mid-sem are over...BUT....do reali badly for microbio....was confident of the pract....yet i score so low....thought it will pull my poor mid sem results...instead....it makes no changes....hai...i did rest since yesterdae...juz watch show n do nothing...but it's time to catch up wif all the lect for i have missed/skipped...haaa....to study mid-sem...realli still got one last chance to do well...the FINAL exam...yes...tis time....i muz make sure i get it right...hav everything in my brain...muz realise tat i m not alone...people doing the same combi will be in the same boat...if they can do it...so can i!....i dun realli lik e feeling when i tried so hard to persuade myself to wake up early to go for lect....then friends juz came n ask u for notes...cos they din come for lect...excuses lik too tired...wana study...etc...halo...i m in the same situation as you...n since i can come...so why can't u all do e same as well?...i koe...u all muz be tinkin...gwen would be in the lect...she always go...she's so hardworking...etc...etc...also...hate it when people equate hardworking and good grades together...NO...IT DOESN'T WORK FOR ME!....sometimes...the more i tried...the worse it gets....everyone tells me to relax...but cos i koe my standard...i am nt as clever as some people...so in order to catch up...i ned to work extra harder...spend more time...i always say tis to myself...but in the end...i get distracted very easily...n also swayed by other people veri easily...oh well...hai...got to go liao...anyway...i will try not to tink about all these stuff n concentrate...i realli need to learn how to concentrate...someting tat i have been trying to master...jiayou!
long time no ccccccccc.....haha....reali reali busy wif sch work tis sem...finally got another study break...but after tat got another mid-sem and tis time it's BIOCHEM...omg...can die man...tryin to memorise all the process etc...and also how to do those problems qns>.<>
tis is so dam crap....i juz wrote quite a lot of stuff and when i click publish post...onli those above got displayed....the rest are GONE! got to type again...but it would be different...haa...i was saying...actually after finishin the immuno topics i find it interesting...like hoe the innate and adaptive immune system works...haa...cool!...been stayin up late ever since the start of tis sem...no choice sia...cos got to stay up to study, do work etc...but i want my life back!...i koe i hav to relax...dun worry...have been relaxing since fri...it's time for me to go back n study!!...haaa..perth royal show is here again...gonna get show bags again...n tis time...wana take many photos...n reali stay there e whole dae n play and cc look look...haah...onli can play a dae...e rest got to study!!!...haa...will relax a while in btw also...haa...so dun ned to worry....can't wait to go back to s'pore...missing everyone...everything already!!!...todae went out to walk walk...n bought a bear for 16dolar...juz a normal size one...though find it x...but it's for a gd cause...for the bears foundation...protecting the bears in Africa...haa...it's realli soft n nice to carry...but the fur keeps falling off...haa...nvm...i still like it...tink i m reali bored here...wan to be more happening...but scared will neglect my studies...n also wana do well cos i hav spent so much to study here...reali..feel bad...wana try to save as much as i could...but u koe...i tend to spend a lot...buy clothes etc...even though tat's nt my initial intention...oh die...esp nw i m quite addicted to bags...
