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Sunday 30 March 2008

daylight savings end!!...hmm...tink actually daylight savings is not bad...e gd thing...dae is longer...implyin tat i can stay outside longer...hahaa...but e bad thing is...can be realli hot n bright...haaa..oh...my study break ends tonite...so sad...din do much this break...no mood...haaa...cos e first few wks has been realli busy...n tired after so long...so wana give myself a break...but..still got 2 tests when sch starts...omg...yr 2 is so different from 1st yr..my friends from curtin...all graduating soon sia...then next yr...onli one left in perth...hai...met them on sat for a chit-chat session...haaa..we all miss e times we had in sec sch...n also...talk about how e new sch is it...as u koe...e sch got closed...sad to c a sch tat leave so many nice memories close down...though e reputation is nt gd...but i realli believe that my batch is not bad...e students...teachers...principal...they are all great!...n we hav a lot of fun together..i lik my sec 1 most...cos i was in e last express class...so everyone in e class is lik we r lik all rejects...hmm..din do well for psle...then etc...dun ned to bother whether hav to get 1st in class...in level...etc...it realli feels lik u r coming to sch to learn something...to have fun...always hang out at mac after sch...go watch movie..go out...etc..but from sec 2 onwards...got into 1st class...e atmosphere is different...everyone is so hardworking...every teacher has high hopes in u...n cos u r in e first class...everything has to be gd...conduct...studies...etc...people will tink tat u r a nerd...u r clever etc...but actually not...i made friends from NA n NT class...tink tat they r realli great!..though they may nt be as hardworking...but they r realli nice...feel relax when i m wif them...cos we wun be talkin anything about studies...unlike in e 1st class...it's lik competition everydae...wat's ur rank, how much u got for test???...wah...enough sia...

uni life so far...not too bad...made lots of great friends...haa..got it's ups n downs...but generally alright...i can overcome anything!!!..haha...wana go back to s'pore!!!..wana eat!!!..

Monday 24 March 2008

here i am again...stupid sia...juz nw type halfway got disconnected...so kind of hav to restart com again...been saying it's gettin windy these days...realli cold at nite...but still bearable...haaa..todae is easter mon...n also e start of my study break!!...but...still got a lot to do...research pamphlet..research essay...presentation...crime scene report which i finished yesterdae...haha..hai...so sad sia...though sometimes i feel tat it's nice being alone...but nw...i feel realli sian ar...wonder if i should go n watch movie alone 2mr...haha..should i?...i mean it's not e first time anyway...y not other daes...haha...cos wana go garden city...then tues is student price...hai...wana do so much stuff...but when i thought of doing it alone...sian ar...nt fun enough!!!..aha..vee...i realli miss e times we had...shopping...watching movies...eating...how i wish my good frienzs were here...

Saturday 22 March 2008

went harbour town to do some shopping...omg...spent a lot of money todae...omg...tink i ought to be shot..onli koe how to shop n not study..haha..went out alone todae...hahah..actually i find tat soemtimes...it's gd to be alone...cos u can go wherever u wan...or how n when u wana go...i like to walk then take a bus...i can't stand long bus journeys...will vomit...haha..walking is gd...i can c a lot of things...sort out my thoughts...hav new ideas etc...it's nt juz a normal walk...from the walk...sometimes u can get inspirations...or when u r sad...after a walk...u may feel much better...i mean it works for me...i feel relax...happie...so when i m stress...i would usually go out for a walk...i did tat in sv...but nw...in e new hse...i can onli pace myself in e rm...cos outisde is dark n unsafe...there are things tat i realli wana say...but i koe people will be unhappy...they will be tinkin lik y m i so mafan?...y do i hav some many rules...etc...i juz wana keep e place clean...n SAFE!...i realli realli miss last yr n my home...everything when the thought of the fun i had last yr n my home...will be so sad...realli...wana go home...i tried to give everything my best shot...but expectations dun usually meet up for my case...realli duno wa to do...sometimes i realli wonder how to make myself happy...happy in the way tat i enjoyed every part of my life and the things i do...people said i look strong...independent...but actually i m not...i like to rely on people...i cry whenever i m sad or i can juz cry for no reason...it's realli nt easy to kind of leave on ur own...without ur family...u hav to learn to be realli be responsible for everything u do...or said...i do hav my own way of tinkin...it's juz tat i can be easily swayed by other people's opinion...i realli duno to choose my heart or to juz take the words of the majority???

e pictures i uploaded...haha...wif my hk and malaysian frienz...hahah...tis sem...kind of closer...went out...eat...study...haha...had fun on that dae at garden city...shopping!!!...finally...

Friday 21 March 2008

Saturday 15 March 2008

another wkend...so fast n wk4 is ending...been busy these daes...test...reports...test...problem sheet...one after another...next wk got bms test n probl sheet due...it's realli driving me nuts!!!..problem sheet...wonder if i did it rite...ned to compare ans wif people...then as for bms..tink i m realli hopeless...can't seem to remember anything...muscles n nerves...these 2 topics are my weakest ones...never like these 2 cos there's too much things to learn...but nw...i juz hav to force myself...so i hav a feeling tat i wun do well for tis first quiz...tink it's 10% of total grade if i'm not wrong...since sec sch...my bio isn't tat great...i ned a lot of time...revisions...consultations to realli get it into my head..but tis time...i realli got not enough time...i will try my best...then will work extra hard during study break to catch up all e lect...tis time...i realli muz make sure i m confident to take on the next quiz...
was realli sad yesterdae...dun ask me y...kind of personal...i bet u hav e feeling tat u realli wanted something but...after several tries...u still can't get it...n u will start to tink of giving up...tinkin y m i such a failure...always disappointing everyone...i tried to be a better person...change my habits when i came here...but u koe..habits...not easy to change...but dun worry...i m trying to...
kind of though wa to do during my study break...besides studyin...i realli wana pack my rOOM...so messey...clean it as well...n also to bake cakes!!!...tis sem...realli lik no mood to cook...will try to eat out as long as anyone ask me...hahha...ya i koe i shouldn't...cos it's expensive...dun worry i will still cook...but juz not as enthu as last yr...maybe cos feel bored cooking for myself le...wa can i say...n i hav to start planning wa i should do for my 21st b'dae...haha...it's a pity tat i can't celebrate in s'pore...tink it will be more fun there...wif my frienzs and family..realli miss them liao..they realli give me a lot of support...trying to encourage me...family is realli the one u can depend on for ur whole life...i like my family...though we like to fight...hahah...but tat's kind of how we communicate...we all mean no harm...juz wana play...haha...
2mr is study dae again...mon also...tues...wed...thurs...hahah...thurs after class...it's time to celebrate!!...for e hard work we have done in e past few wks!!!...i realli did lesser shopping tis sem...it's been a month since i last went to e city!!!...omg...i used to go there like every 2 wks...then go garbo...n other place...omg...tink i m realli behind fashion!!!..haha...got to reward myself a little!!!

Tuesday 11 March 2008

Sleeping ProblemSSSSS...tis is realli bad...for e past one wk n till nw...i have difficulty slpin....u c...when i get tired..realli tired...i went to lie down n slp....BUT...i couldn't...i tried to force myself not to tink of anything..but it seems lik e moment i lie on e bed...i will tink of a lot of stuff..from studies...to past memories...to recent events...i juz can't stop!...even if i finally slp...i will hav nightmares...n woke up again...i tried ways of helpin me to slp...but it doesn't work...hai...how?...tis is going to affect everything i do...e way i tink...etc...should hav ask from my doc to give me some pills...hahha...though i try not to..cos dun wana get dependent on those..wa can i do?

Sunday 9 March 2008

VIRUS!!!!...tat's wa happen to my laptop...not again!!!...last sem it was my fault...n tis sem, it's someone else!!!but how does it affect me...kk...it goes lik tis....someone happen to download some programs maybe n e virus juz came along wif it as well...without e person knowing...then tis virus travel along the network n infect com's tat is connected to e network!!!..wa it does is to infect ur thumbdrive...usb...n will cause the malfunction of some folders...they say it kind of steal info from ur com i tink...nw...juz hav to try n guard by installing all e firewall...anti-virus thing...hopefully it will not worsen e problem..but my com still got prob...hai...juz change my harddrive b4 i came back...n nw...hai...tink i m realli unlucky...haaa...luckily my report stuff is still intact...or i would juz kill myself..haaa..anyway...my 1st attempt in lab report...kind of stuck as to wa to write...but...after the consulting sally...feels better...understand much better...gd to hav someone tat knows around..haaa...thanxs Sally!..oh...n also Tim...who tried his best to help me fix e com...realli great to hav them...cos i still duno a lot of stuff...seriously...i realli need to be more dependent...tis sem...wa a dae i had todae...

Wednesday 5 March 2008

here i am...haha...powerpotato is losing power soon...need somewhere or something or someone to help to recharge...anyway...tink my genetics is screwing everything!...how am i suppose to do well?...e lecture notes is kind of brief...eveyone doesn't koe exactly wat's going on...basically...no one understands...how???...i did readings on e net n also look up on textbks...it does helps a bit...But...for lab????no idea...n got a lab report to do...how???...my first attempt writing lab report...never like genetics in e first place...so y m i doing tis?...at first thought...maybe it's alrite...can't be tat bad...but nw...i have changed my mind...it's realli bad...it makes me even wonder if i m up to it...whether i have made e rite choice...hopefully it will get better once i get used to it...hahah...hopes dashed...ok...tink i better stop all tis...GWEN!...wake up! it's not e end of e world!...jiayou!!!haha..

Monday 3 March 2008

todae is labour day in WA butttttttt....we still have sch...so sad....dam tired these few days...no idea y...dun tink it's studies cos i din study much...maybe e weather...hmm...maybe a little...tink it's juz tat i din slp well at nite..no idea y...i koe i m veri tired...so i went to lie on e bed..but it turns out to be a torture...cos i can't slp!!!...e whole nite...i m like semi-conscious!...hai...whatever it is...juz hope tis sem will be fine...

Sunday 2 March 2008

went to curtin uni todae...frienzs performing for thieir church...actually..it's seemed alright initially...then...i realise...my frienz said it's like city harvest....where they keep trying to psycho u to join their church...ahaha...keep singing n praying...those people seemed as if their soul is being sucked or controlled by someone...i knoe maybe i will offend people but tat's how i feel...it's like a legally formed cult to me...esp when i have my own religion...asking me to accept and change is not an option for me..or maybe it's juz tat tis one is scary...cos i been to some in s'pore and they r not lik tis...they keep saying we have free will...the freedom to choose...haha...funny sia...cos throughout e session...they have been asking people to bow n pray...n at e end...keep asking new people to join etc...haha...tis kind of thing is not going to work for me...i would rather die than commit to this kind of 'cult'... haha..they r like trying to brainwashed people's mind...omg...tis seemed crap to me...as long as u have e heart...it would be fine...dun need to go too over!!...i had enough!!...haha...anyway...it's my sis b'dae todae!!!...happy b'dae to you!!!...dun worry...will get ur present when i come back...hahah...hopefully...