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Saturday 30 June 2007

halo...hmmm...so fast results out le...was ok...kind of expected...these few days have been staying at hm...watching anime...Bleach...is nice...hmm...actually tink time past quite slowly...maybe cos got nothing to do...tat's y...but also lik i am goin back soon...haha...tink i hav wasted a lot of time...time to do something meaningful...haha...lik?..hav to tink...i am lik a pig....all i can do is to eat, slp, and watch anime...or tv...last wk miss guess...todae muz remember to watch...last wk 2 tired le...wa should i do for e next few wks?...haha...tink it's time to visit e lib and read up on some stuff...dun wan to slack le...for next sem...muz work extra hard also...tink tis sem i slack quite a bit...haha...hopefully next sem will be better...actually tink tat hm is still e best...it's gd to be in aust stayin...cos tink tat encironment is gd for me...n i onli need to b responsible to myself...wun feel tat stress tat i have to answer to my parents...but when u r sick or when u need to talk to someone...u will miss hm...anyway...it's a gd experience to go there...i still hav a lot to learn...haha...i m still not independent enough...i hav to settle things on my own le...hav to b responsible for everything tat i have done...said...if i hav offended anyone in e past...b'cos of my actions or words...let me say...SORRY...i didn't mean to hurt anyone...sometimes i juz say anything tat is on my mind without tinkin...i m too impulsive..n straightforward...if i hurt u or u tink i am too mean...feel free to tell me...i lik people to comment about me...whether it's positive or negative...i lik hoinest comments...juz rememeber not to lie or cheat me...i hate liars...haha...

haha...yesterdae din update my blog...y?..oh...u koe something..tink i m veri unlucky these few days first...wen to c doctor b'cos of cold...then e next dae...sprained my back and was bedridden e whole dae..haha...tat's yest lo...tat's y din update or go msn...feel tat my body is lik so much older as compared to my age...hai...old liao....all e problems start appearing...i am so mafan...lik wa my family always say...haha...hmm...still got a lot to learn...hav to be more independent...cannot depend on my family and frienzs le...i need to be more responsible for myself and the people around me...making them worry or sad makes me sad too...my back is better but still need time to recover...something to do wif my muscle...e doctor said...haha...so stupid...come back here...so many problems...yesterdae also had a nice chat wif my mum...about Aust....it's still e best wif a family member around...at least i feel more comfortable talking to them...but of course not everything can be said...some have to be kept by urself....

Thursday 28 June 2007

hmm..stayed at hm e whole dae...sick lo...wen to c doctor...sian ar...y so easy fall sick de...am i realli tat weak?haha...anyway...was watching bleach e whole dae...it's not bad..i like it...haha...but got so many episodes...wonder if i can finish watching...at crunchyroll.com...tink i realli hav an old woman's body...everywhere also pain...haha...maybe too long din exercise le...tink i should go gym 2mr...haha...sian....everydae...haha...oh ya...did oreo cheesecake todae...haha..not bad...will try more other cakes next time!...wah...wa cake should i make? tell me? haha...omg gettin fat lo...if i keep making...haha...it's ok...i like to eat cakes!!..tink i lose a little weight...cos sick ma...but will gain it back de...once i finish all e cake! haha

Wednesday 27 June 2007

hmm..had a great time todae sia...thanxs a lot!..hope u all like e stuff i gave u...had a great time chatting..can't wait to meet up again!..wait till mao come back n we all can meet up sia...n play squash! miss playin it...haha...so full sia...ate so much...nice view from the esplanade rooftop...
haha...next time let's go there again!...sori ar...todae no battery...dun worry next time will bring more! then can take!...anyway thanxs!...sori tat i m bad at takin photos...hands very shaky...haha...

Tuesday 26 June 2007

hmm...todae wen for dental check-up...hmm...dentist says i need to remove my wisdom tooth...both...lower de...but cos it's kind of complicated...so need to go for operation...hmmm..how ar?...but need to go n c doctor first...then decide when...actually dun wan to take out...but if i dun...later if got infection and it infect the rest of my teeth...i will be in deep trouble!..so...though it's goin to b a minor operation...i m still scared...juz pray tat it will not be too serious...haha...my mum bought me more pills....more my joints and also my brain...haha...tink my sis has passed me her cold...feelin sick sia...tink my sis is rite...she always say i m made of paper...so weak...haha...actually sometimes...i realli feel veri tired...how i wish i can slp forever...then i will not tink of anything...esp things tat r sad...many times i have the idea of cutting myself...but i know tat it's not rite...i have no idea y i had tis feeling...juz wan to torture myself...s a way of releasing the unhappiness tat is inside me...ever since jc...i became sensitive of the words "r u ok? "...esp when i m down...if anyone were to ask me tat...i will cry immediately...it's true...i have no idea y also...tink i m juz a freak...haha...2mr meeting the squashies...haha...4 months le...miss playing wif them...but 2mr is juz a dinner and chat session...at marina square..

Monday 25 June 2007

i always have a lot of things to say...esp at nite...i will tink of many things...about life...family...people...etc...i realli want to say it out loud...but i dare not dare not say it out..tat's y i have been writting a lot ever since i am in perth...maybe cos when u have more time there to urself...u tend to ponder...i thought tat when i come back...i will feel better...but...instead no...it feels juz as bad...i tried to keep myself occupied by goin out wif frienzs...i dun wan to stay at hm...or i will ponder again...i hate this feeling...y do i have it?...i thought i have changed for the better...but it seems like it is still the same..y i can never get what i want?..is it tat difficult?...i always believed that nothing is impossible...till nw i still hold tis belief veri strong...many people says i like to smile and laugh a lot..i juz feel tat we should always look on the bright side no matter wa happens...u can't change anything once it's done...so u juz hav to live on wif it...by putting a smile on my face...i tried to tell myself tat everything is ok...soon it will be over...tis is wa i hav been tellin myself...but i koe sometimes....it is difficult to do tat...esp when u r realli down...then i have another way...tat is to cry it out...i used to cry in my rm in perth...but when i m back hm...i can't do tat...nobody shall koe wat's bothering me...since i hav been keepin it in my heart for some time already...so let it stay inside...actually lookin for close frienz tat i can say it to...but...hmm...tink i say 2 much le...haha..

morning!...todae is the day tat maybe i should juz stay at hm...hmm...looking for materials to read to prepare for my next sem...haha...muz b tinkin i m crazy rite..so many things i feel lik doin...but sian ar...lazy to do...hmm..i muz keep tellin myself i hav to get it done...haha...i wana go back...n study...at least i wun b rotting or imaginin things...i wana keep myself occupied...wif onli books...can i do it?...

Sunday 24 June 2007

wa can i say at tis time...hmm...duno y...suddenly feel kind of...i always believe my sixth sense is always rite...n tink tis time is e same...i had tis strong feeling veri long ago le...i hate to keep things in my heart...but certain things are better not to say it out...when u understand n felt it...u should juz keep quiet n retreat...dun fight...it's pointless de...everyone should hav their own limits..it's not gd to keep holding on de...when it's time to forget...u should let it go...holding on to it is not gd...it's painful to keep holding on...onli when u let go...u can be free...n start again...

halo...hmm..stayed at hm todae...finally...hav a break...did nothing much todae...whole dae juz watch tv...haha...nw juz watching initial D...aiyo...c them race i also feel lik racing too...haha..hav to wait till i got my licence...wen to c webCt n saw my bms pract exam results..haha...luckily i passed...happy but still hav to c my main paper..my bio is always bad...but duno y i still lik bio...haha...anyway...wa should i do 2mr n so on...haha...

Saturday 23 June 2007

power potato is sick again...hai...y ar...ate 2 much yest...din eat anything at all todae...haha..vomit...headache..etc...mafan ar me...hai...tink i might s well kill myself...haha...u c lah...sick i still go out wif my sis...to marina square...cos dun lik to break promise...since she is onli free on wkends...haha...bought clothes again...n a nice jacket...u all muz be wondering y i keep buying clothes...omg..how ar...pls control me...tink sin is realli hot sia..haha..but perth is cold..hai...tat's y i slp in aricon rm here everydae...haha...eat medicine veri slpy sia..but dun wana slp so early...still wana watch guess at 1130...so long din watch le...haha...2mr maybe goin out wif parents..hai..tink 2 busy le tis wk...keep goin out n eat a lot n din slp much...hai...finish watch love queen le...tink it's not bad...esp e ending...veri surprising..haha...unexpected...tink from next wk onwards i better do something meaningful...haha..next wk onli wed n sat booked..haha...so if anyone wana catch a movie or needs me to pei...haha..juz leave me a msg...i m not using my old no...nw change to 91509894...so if u sms or call me n i din reply..u can leave a msg here or email me or...haha..

Friday 22 June 2007

haha...had lunch at sakae todae...hmm..eat till so dam full...had a good time todae...hmm yanyin enjoyed it a lot! n hope u lik e clutch...haha...hmm...everyone still looks the same...haha...gd...u all say untill i also feel lik changing my major...haha..kiddin lah...tink so far i m happy wif it..lik ur 'my' haha...goin to look for a smaller version...nw juz put it s my wallpaper for hp...for those who are wondering wa is 'my'...haha..it's yanyin b'dae present and she name it 'my'...it's actually a mushroom..haha..dam cute lo...i wana buy one 2..haha...hey...n heard tat she met a nice guy durin orientation..hmm..haha..wee may...dun only help people matchmake...u also find one for urself...haha..help yupei also!...tis wk is kind of busy lo...2mr meeting my elder sis to go out...haha...n sun is family dae!haha...hmmm....next wk will be dam free...tink it's time i should stay at hm...n do some reading or...spent realli 2 much le...die lah...haha...

Thursday 21 June 2007

wake up very early todae to eat breakfast wif my grandparents...haha..it's gd to start a dae early...but realli tired ar..wen to commonwealth for brekfast...hmm..ate quite some..nice sia yummy..carrot cake..tao hui..dim sum..then afternoon wen chinatown...bought some clothes there...haha...dun tink chinatown sell all e old stuff...hmm...nw they got sell clothes tat r not bad 2!!...n cheap!haha...wen temple to pray...ate some more at maxwell fd centre...wah...so much...i wana eat...but hav to control...or else will get veri fat...i dun wan ar...cos when i go back...it's winter time...def..will eat a lot de...so nw cannot gain weight...haha...2mr goin orchard again...haha celebrate my frienzs b'dae...tink next wk wil b veri free le...haha...if u wana shop, eat or watch movie or juz wana go out...remember to ask me...c if i m free...haha...cos i also wana go out!!haha...cya 2mr ...

Wednesday 20 June 2007

hmm...todae wen to celebrate v's b'dae at vivo...aiya...forget to take photos again!!! y r we always so forgetful...but it's nice to see people spend money...haha...hmm...tink it's quite enjoyable todae...everyone bought something...i can't wait to have another 'outing' again! haha...been kind of free...tinkin what can i do? design a shoe? ya...should b..then next time u all can see my new creations...haha..still lookin for a bag..hmm..saw some tat i like but cannot decide wich...haha...need to ask my younger sis..haha...she has more fashion sense than me...n the clothes she bought r realli nice n unique...haha...hmm..can't wait to shop again...but actually quite sian at times also...duno y...i never lik to shop de...then juz recently i start...i mean since after jc...tink i become more conscious of my appearance...tinkin tat lookin gd can give a better impression...haha...hai...still haven found the perfect hairstyle tat i wan...haha...y all e hairstylist always cut tis kind of funky style de? haha...do i realli suit tis?...actually juz wana cut shorter...but nvm...haha...my mum even complains tat i should hav long hair...cos i have grown up le...should look more lady-like...haha...wana hav long hair 2..n curl it...but...tink i realli look dam old wif long hair...hai...still tinkin of wa to eat everyday...haha...haven eaten a lot of stuff..hmm..maybe 2mr mornin go redhill market and eat more!!!!haha...

Tuesday 19 June 2007

wen to cut my hair todae! wonder if people find it ok...haha...at first dun realli like it...cos lik e same s e past...but the hair stylist is realli nice!...where i cut..haha...chapt2...bugis...wana go there again...tink i can onli buy clothes from there...cos it's cheaper n fashionable!...great...can't wait to go there again!haha...got a list of things to buy lo...omg...goin to spend a bomb le!!! actually spent quite some le...but still got a lot to buy...haha

the day vee and i wen to watch pirates!

Monday 18 June 2007

garden city shoppin!...hmm...tink we had fun there...yeah!

look at e guy behind...what's he doing there? haha

trip to Caversham wildlife park!

e day we had flat bonding! korean food...yummy!

my birthday at billy's lee rest...

haha...todae wen to orchard wif my mum amd sis...hmmm...but like din buy anything lo...y ar?...no mood to shop?..haha..actually haven see finish lo...cos wen out late..nvm..hopefully 2mr when i go bugis...will buy more!haha...can't wait to restock my clothes! haha...tink i need to control...save money...dun play till 2 happy...later results out...i cry lik....haha...so juz play first...enjoy...results out then cry...haha...tink i siao le...haha

hmm...wa can i do...haha..since i am back..shop? eat?...hmm.can't wait to shop till i drop..haha..goin to spend a bomb!haha..muz control sia..wana hav a hair cut..hmm..how shall i cut?...like to leave it short..tink i look better in short hair...long hair makes me look older sia...2mr maybe will be goin shopin...orchard? bugis? my fav hangout place...goin to play the whole break...worry tat i will not wan to return...first dae back in sin...feels a little diff...tink i need some time to adapt...weird sia..lik i kind of become a tourist...finally can hav nitelife le...dun need to worry to go back late...can play s long s i wan...haha...anyone who is free...can juz ask me out! dun wana stay at hm!

Sunday 17 June 2007

Yo...hi all that kow me!...veri fast sia..been Aust to study for 4 months le..so fast..hmm..think it's realli a gd experience!...so hot in sin...hmm..hope that when i return to perth..i will not freeze to death! haha...hmm..power potato is back...to save the world remember...anyway...feel free to sms / msn/skype/friendster..anything u wan to koe or meet me...juz give me a call or anyway...u will reach me eventually haha...tink i m fatter nw...nvm...hope that i will sweat more and lose weight!haha but at the same time...i will eat a lot!