SHE.HER.

i always have a lot of things to say...esp at nite...i will tink of many things...about life...family...people...etc...i realli want to say it out loud...but i dare not dare not say it out..tat's y i have been writting a lot ever since i am in perth...maybe cos when u have more time there to urself...u tend to ponder...i thought tat when i come back...i will feel better...but...instead no...it feels juz as bad...i tried to keep myself occupied by goin out wif frienzs...i dun wan to stay at hm...or i will ponder again...i hate this feeling...y do i have it?...i thought i have changed for the better...but it seems like it is still the same..y i can never get what i want?..is it tat difficult?...i always believed that nothing is impossible...till nw i still hold tis belief veri strong...many people says i like to smile and laugh a lot..i juz feel tat we should always look on the bright side no matter wa happens...u can't change anything once it's done...so u juz hav to live on wif it...by putting a smile on my face...i tried to tell myself tat everything is ok...soon it will be over...tis is wa i hav been tellin myself...but i koe sometimes....it is difficult to do tat...esp when u r realli down...then i have another way...tat is to cry it out...i used to cry in my rm in perth...but when i m back hm...i can't do tat...nobody shall koe wat's bothering me...since i hav been keepin it in my heart for some time already...so let it stay inside...actually lookin for close frienz tat i can say it to...but...hmm...tink i say 2 much le...haha..