SHE.HER.

wah...todae..went out wif my mum to orchard first...walk walk...then find kind of sian....then decide to go bugis...sian ar...my mixed feelings is still there...hai...here is nice cos got frienzs n family members...i treasure them a lot...but when i go back....though got frienzs there...but s u koe...they r still not close enough for me to tell them how i feel...i duno...everytime i feel lik telling them...but i juz hav too many things to say...tink they will say my worries r nothing...dun worry etc...then my mum also set rules for me...lik wa to do n not to do there...though some may say she's not there to supervise me...but will feel bad if i lie to her...etc...i have been lying since young...many things..to people....i hate to lie...but i duno y...it's lik it has become a habit...how?...i feel so lousy...never done anything tat will make my mum feel proud...only made her angry...worried...etc...my words are mean...always say my sis...though i dun realli mean it n koe it will hurt one...i juz can't stop myself...i feel bad too after saying it...but i juz can't control...is there something wrong wif me?...y i can get realli high suddenly...n later...had so much emotions tat filled my mind...i koe some people may agree wif me...cos tink i m not alone...tat's y when i m down...will write or type my emotions down...therefore can't realli say i have a diary...cos i dun write everydae...haha...my 'diary'...if anyone were to read it...tink u will tink how come tis people onli record down the unhappy stuff n not e happy stuff?...haha...anyway tat's enough...can't wait for sch to start...so tat to keep me occupied...so tat i will not imagine or tink too much tat can drive me crazy at times...haha...