SHE.HER.

went harbour town to do some shopping...omg...spent a lot of money todae...omg...tink i ought to be shot..onli koe how to shop n not study..haha..went out alone todae...hahah..actually i find tat soemtimes...it's gd to be alone...cos u can go wherever u wan...or how n when u wana go...i like to walk then take a bus...i can't stand long bus journeys...will vomit...haha..walking is gd...i can c a lot of things...sort out my thoughts...hav new ideas etc...it's nt juz a normal walk...from the walk...sometimes u can get inspirations...or when u r sad...after a walk...u may feel much better...i mean it works for me...i feel relax...happie...so when i m stress...i would usually go out for a walk...i did tat in sv...but nw...in e new hse...i can onli pace myself in e rm...cos outisde is dark n unsafe...there are things tat i realli wana say...but i koe people will be unhappy...they will be tinkin lik y m i so mafan?...y do i hav some many rules...etc...i juz wana keep e place clean...n SAFE!...i realli realli miss last yr n my home...everything when the thought of the fun i had last yr n my home...will be so sad...realli...wana go home...i tried to give everything my best shot...but expectations dun usually meet up for my case...realli duno wa to do...sometimes i realli wonder how to make myself happy...happy in the way tat i enjoyed every part of my life and the things i do...people said i look strong...independent...but actually i m not...i like to rely on people...i cry whenever i m sad or i can juz cry for no reason...it's realli nt easy to kind of leave on ur own...without ur family...u hav to learn to be realli be responsible for everything u do...or said...i do hav my own way of tinkin...it's juz tat i can be easily swayed by other people's opinion...i realli duno to choose my heart or to juz take the words of the majority???